Saturday, July 31, 2010


I'm going to live for forever... :P heheheh, I'm such a typical guy sometimes.

Anyway, in other news, I'm going to try to get episode 1 of Harrison's Mind done before next Thursday. Why next Thursday? Well, I'm going to be on vacation! So, yeah, I better get to work.

Thursday, July 29, 2010


For the illiterate people out there; google is increasing the upload limit from 10 minutes to 15 minutes. YEA!

(I wonder if anyone will catch the joke I just made?)

Tuesday, July 27, 2010


So, first off, I'm slightly intoxicated here...yea, that's a good preface. When I'm this way my internal filter between my brain and my mouth (or in this case, my hands) shuts down. So, this is unfiltered, whatever I'm thinking at the moment, Ian's Mind.

Anyway, for the past few months I've been actively trying to find someone compatible to date. I've been single for over a year now but that was totally by choice. I got out of a long, long relationship with my ex-fiancé and had no interest what-so-ever with the opposite gender. This slowly faded over the past whatever, or so, and a while back I decided that my heart had healed enough and I was ready to find love again. Oh, yeah, the reason it took so long is I still love my ex, I mean, I wouldn't have asked her to marry me if I hadn't been prepared to commit to loving her no matter what. Unfortunately, that wasn't enough and, even though I loved her, she didn't feel the same for me. So, I broke it off. Yeah. Suck.

Anyway, so a little while back I decided to stop passively looking for people to date (a good idea since I think about the only person of the opposite gender that I didn't already know I'd usually meet at a paintball game and it's hard to ask someone out when you're shooting them with little gelatin balls traveling at over 200 miles per hour. My other hobbies (golf, video games, flying, reading, bowling, Na'vi, DnD, etc) and my work (which you've already seen) don't really include any interaction with the opposite gender, or any gender for that matter). So, yeah, I decided to find people rather than let people come to me.

Now, I'm not a shy person, mostly just a quiet person. However, I can be forward and friendly to strangers so I usually do well at bars and parties, and that's where I started. There's a couple of good bars around town and I've been hanging out at a few of them on a regular basis and the times I've been there were a lot of fun. I met lots of really cool people, made a bunch of friends, got tons of numbers, and was having a great success.

Fast-forward 2 months and here I am. Still single. Frankly, all the people I meet there are great friends but I just have little to no interest in dating them. They're either losers, or taken, or boring, or just not someone I could ever be with.

Anyway, the whole reason I'm writing this is I seriously am considering joining a dating site. I cringe just thinking about it, but the more I think about it, the more it makes sense. I mean, bars, clubs, and whatever are mostly going to be full of losers, nobodies, people already with someone, or desperate people. I don't belong there. Now, I'm a engineer, nerd, and generally left-brained person. The logical side of me is telling me that I should do this because it's efficient, simple, and easy. Hell, probably cheaper too. As much as I love a good drink, spending $20 at a bar each week does tend to add up.

So, yeah, I'm basically torn between going back to my passive search of hoping to meet the right someone through normal social interaction (unlikely) or try a dating site (which I'm half expecting to be full of fakers and the other half full of losers) but, hell it's worth a try, right?

Anyway, that's my question. Am I making sense here? Or should I continue the "traditional" dating routine of meeting people at bars, parties, and other social gatherings?

Anyway, reading this over again this seems ridiculous but, frankly, I have nobody else at the moment to really talk to and I know I'm not thinking clearly enough to make sense of all this. I'm half tempted to delete this right now, and probably will in the morning. Hell, this probably makes me sound like some loser, lonely dude which couldn't be farther from the truth. Fuck, I have so many friends in one way I'm glad a few of them moved away recently, gives me a little more free time to myself. But, still, I'm a ladies man (if you pardon the expression). I enjoy loving someone and being loved by them. I miss that connection and, while desperate is the last thing I am, I sure do miss it.

Damn, I think I need a vacation or something. I've become way too emotional over the past few weeks. Blah, usually I can contain these emotions but lately I've been so sappy I make myself sick.

Okay, I'm rambling now. Whatever, I'm just going to click "post" without reading this rant. I'll read it in the morning and decide if I should delete this or not.



Thanks for reading I guess.

I'm gonna go play some video games before bed.

P.S. Firefox spellchecker is my friend. Yay.

P.P.S. I know, I need to post some videos. I've got like 4 coming, 2 paintball, 1 Ian's Mind, and the first episode of Harrison's Mind. They're coming. Despite all this rambling I am actually getting some work done on them. I guess that's one advantage of being single. Now, if only I could get rid of my crappy commute I'd have tons of free time.

P.P.P.S. While I was at the bar I came up with some ideas for my story. Yay.

P.P.P.P.S. Yeah, maybe Cyh's got the right idea. Maybe I should just say "fuck this shit" and work on videos and stories. It sounds like a lot of fun.

P.P.P.P.P.S. Wow, this is fucking bad.

Paper Mill Platform

If anyone's interested, here is my current design for the platform at the paper mill that I showed in my video:

Platform 3D Model
Platform 3D Model - Structural steel only.
Okay, back to work.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Writing Stuff

Curse you Cyhanide, last night I stayed up till 5:30 AM writing and only went to bed because the slowly lightening sky told me that if I didn't then I never would.

Actually, scratch that. You're awesome. That was so much fun I can't wait to write some more. Normally on something this big I'd pace myself because there's so much to do but, as with Na'vi, I just have this insane drive and no matter how tedious it is to build a whole world from scratch or edit something 10 times until you perfect it I just want to do more.

Here is the sample chapter I wrote if you guys and gals want to read it, I tried to pick an interesting part of the story that wouldn't give away anything: The Tale of Narian and Lucas

Some things about the story; I apologize for any typos, grammar, or spelling errors. Much of this was written when I was tired and if stuff doesn't seem well written blame my tired brain. Some other things, I still haven't fleshed out the world hardly at all, I have enough names and places for my current outline and that's all so some of the names might change. Still not quite happy with the names of the two characters in the title so I may change them. Oh, and the title I am not happy with, I wanted it to be The Tale of Kìlvarin but DeviantArt objects to non-English characters in the title. Meh.

So, yeah, I have another hobbie now and I totally didn't need any more. Oh well, at least with this one I can do it on weekends when I'm visiting my parents or I can brainstorm when I'm driving to work on my long ass commute.

Oh well, I doubt this will interfere with Harrison's Mind. Speaking of that, I've gotten the first episode all laid out finally. Took me forever to figure out what exactly I wanted to do with the first bit and I still haven't decided if I want to make this a two part episode or not. The reason for this is the first 15 minutes of the game are great but there's no action, which is awesome because it sets up the suspense and the action parts great but I'm not sure if people will get bored with the first few episodes.

Well, actually, I think I just decided. One part, 6 minutes or so. I guess I'll just have a boring episode 1 but whatever, it sets up episode 2 to be exciting and then episode 3 and 4 are all awesome. Man, I forgot how much I loved this game. I've played it about 10 times and the bastard STILL gets my heart going when the aliens show up. It's just...GAH! they just jump out at you when you least expect them.

Blast, now I want to go play some AvP2....bah, I've been working hard this weekend, I could use a video game break.

Edit: Just discovered how to mod AvP2. Yay! Now I can remove the main characters dialog, fix some weapon sounds, and make the game more friendly to a mind series. Crap! Now I have more work to do and need to reshoot the footage for episodes 1 and 2.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

BP Photoshop

Hey, anyone hear about BP's horrible photoshop(s) of some PR images? No? Yes? Well, whatever, I find it stupid that people are making such a big deal out of it, I think the only fail here is how bad they photoshoped the images.

Article on the photoshopping.

However, with my awesome computer skillz, I unearthed the true images and found that they actually did a good job. The image appears to have 4 different versions and they finally settled on the one in the article.

The original image.
Version 1
Version 2
Version 3
Final Version

Heheh, so you can see that clearly they know what they are doing.

(Wow, I totally should have been using the time the I took to make these more productively. Like Harrison's Mind-Ep. 1, which I have about halfway done.)

P.S. And actually, shouldn't we be glad that they're not spending time, effort, and money on some stupid PR images when they have one of the worst natural disasters to deal with?

Monday, July 19, 2010


So, I've been a little lazy...but that's nothing new, right?

Yeah, working on Harrison's Mind in a second, haven't even got the footage filmed for this one. It's not like I haven't been doing any work on it, I've just been taking my time with starting this mind series. Trying to figure out what works and what doesn't. Anyway, no idea when I'll have episode 1 done but when I do I'll let you guys and gals know.

Also, as you guys may have noticed I disabled the anonymous commenting last week because some asshat decided that posting a bunch of useless spam messages would be funny. NO IT WASN'T DICKCHEESE! BLARG! So, it was a choice between no comments at all, only registered user comments, or me approving all comments. I picked door number 2. Apparently though, this pissed a lot of people off so I've now put things back to normal with one change, when the blog post is older than 7 days comments have to be approved by me.

Maybe this will even get rid of the pron bot? Anyway, hopefully this is a happy medium. However, if someone decides to be an idiot again I'll either suffer having to approve every comment (bleh) or go back to no anon comments (double bleh).

Let's see, what else? Well, I've been reading Cyh's story that she posts on DeviantArt and loving every chapter. It's a great story, doubly so since she wrote most of it when she was 14. I've loved reading it so much that I think I'm going to start writing my own story.

I've never written fiction before but have always wanted to try it and have had a story idea kicking around in my head for years now. I know, I need another hobbie like I need a hole in the head but this shouldn't take up that much time, unlike my other hobbies.

Speaking of other hobbies, I played some paintball the other day and hooked up my camera again. So sometime soon I'll post those videos. I'm gonna edit in some maps and things showing the layout of the field and where people are so you guys can follow along with the action better. Should be interesting to watch I think.

Oh, and yes, I haven't forgotten, still have to make that "Making of Barney's Mind" video. Don't worry, that will happen sooner or later. It's just my plans for that thing are so complex it will take a long time to do it and it must be done all at once so I need a whole day for it. (A whole day?! For a single project?! Ahahaha, you must be joking.)

Lastly, if you guys remember, I speak Na'vi (from the Avatar movie). I'm one of a bunch of people online learning it (lately directly from the guy who made it!) and I think it's a wonderfully beautiful language. I'd really like to make a video using it but have no idea what that could be that wouldn't be either boring or stupid. Any one have a good idea? The best I've come up is a song (ack, I think my singing was banned by the Geneva Convention) or a poem, but something tells me those too wouldn't be that interesting.

Okay, that's enough rambling for now, until next time.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Harrison's Mind Trailer

Trailer for Harrison's Mind can be found here, hope you like it.